Mothers.

I have one. Everyone does. I am one. And I have come to realize that at some point my daughters will hate me. Yes, I know I will try as hard as possible to ward this off, learning from the many mistakes my own mother has made, but it will, in the end, come to be. For I know that even though my own mother loves me dearly, there are times when I hate her. Of course, it doesn't last for long and I will always forgive and love her in reality. But until that magical day comes when she realized that I am not an 11 year old child running around in an adult body with two small children in tow, there are more days that I will come to despise her and her opinions. No matter how they are shared.
I realize that she thinks I'm a terrible mother that trusts other people too much, that puts other things before her children, and that I will never be married to the guy she would have choosen (which is just fine with me as I love the guy I CHOSE). I know she hates him too. I know she thinks I could have "done better" for myself. But we've been married for 3 years, have two children, and only one real fight (which happened before we were married). We are happy. We are still as in love as we were on our wedding day. Actually, we're even more in love than we were then. I've done a lot more than most girls my age.
I know I will never live up to whatever her image of me is. I don't think I want to. I am not her. I don't want to be her. I don't want to angry all the time. I don't want to stop trusting my own instincts when it comes to my children. I don't want to remain in my house, alone with the girls, every day and every night. I need to have some outlet once in awhile. I don't leave them every night. I don't just leave them with anyone. I am careful. I am doing my best to be a good mom. I know that those two little girls have absolute trust in me to protect them and I would die for them. I just wish my mom would understand that. I wish my mom would understand a great deal of things about me. Mostly, I wish she would stop thinking of me as a stupid little child that is always screwing up.